peril

The Flow

These are our hours
This is our time

Honestly it's difficult to believe that it's only been 10 days since I wrote a journal entry.  it has been an incredibly hectic week-and-a-bit, and though it had a nice balance of work and fun, I actually have quite a bit of work to do this week, and I’ll have to make the fun for myself. On the other hand, I may need a couple more days off of doing anything at all...


On the 23rd I had two major long distance meeting, both of which created some serious work, I designed and wrote a ten page proposal for consulting with a company, which may or may not work out. If it doesn’t, I enjoyed the proposal-writing process and I felt confident that my offer was a good one. I hope they do consider it, and that my partner-in-crime that I’ve been working alongside at that company advocates for my ideas.



Secondly, there’s a venture I’ve been involved with that was on the back burner for the better part of a year and is starting to come of age now, and I had to script a time management education piece for that, which went better than expected considering it’s a 3 minute segment with a 5 part acronym! All in all it’s put some pretty important pieces of work on top of an already reasonably busy end of summer, and while I am happy about that, I’ve definitely felt a bit stressed and tired lately - though taking care of myself for a couple of days appears to have given me the day I had today, which had high-level productivity and great results in the photography session I shot, and a few interesting twists and turns. More on that later.

Oh, we're on the right side of rock bottom

And I hope that we keep falling


Last Wednesday Paul and I went to a Tupperware meal prep party, which means we came home with tupperware full of marinated meat for a freaking amazing deal on the pocketbook. I am slowly trying to replace some of our older plastic for new Tupperware and this really helps. It’s a great way to learn more quick and easy recipes, too. I have one new way to make chicken that I really like from this batch already.



I also went out for tea with Erin on Thursday, and we had a fantastic conversation as usual, but I felt particularly valuable and loved to be hearing about the part I will play in her wedding. It’s great to have such a close friend in Edmonton, and more friendships of various kinds developing all the time.


I drove into Saskatoon last weekend for a number of reasons, but mainly because one of my besties was having her bachelorette and I just couldn’t miss it because it was a 6 hour drive away, too much fun. On the way into town I stopped at my parents and found that not only had my Mom fixed us up with a new pasta pot, which I knew about, she had also gotten me a refurbished sewing machine. I’m excited to take some time in the winter to learn some repair techniques. We had a lovely chat that evening, and I felt loved and cared for. The next day I headed out to a friend’s acreage and spent a big chunk of time with her, which I totally appreciated, and got to see the mansion they are building (they’re contractors) which I am excited to one day visit when it is finished, though it could take a year or two.

Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's "all as it should be"
Blessed be you name
And blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering

Blessed be your name

After that I had a quick Tim Hortons date with a friend I hadn’t seen since winter, so far too long, and while it was over too soon it was one of those high quality conversations that leave you with a lot of food for thought. She told me that all emotions are a gift, and that we should remember that even when we have hard ones. It was a good thing to think about when some of the news lately has been very happy, and some very sad.

Nothing to prove and
I'm bulletproof and

Know what I'm doing

After this I went to the bachelorette, and it was a blast. I enjoyed a delicious pasta supper, played all sorts of hilarious games (lipstick Pictionary anyone?) and sang some kareoke. For once I got to order snacks before the bar’s restaurant closed, too. I was DDing, so I ended up drinking what felt like a vat of Shirley Temples, which is a drink I have always loved and couldn’t give up for a piddly little thing like adulthood.

There's always something happening
And it's usually quite loud
Our mum she's so house-proud
Nothing ever slows her down
And a mess is not allowed



The following day I slept in a little and then headed over to see my dear friend Ricki’s gorgeous new place with a beautiful open concept main floor, to help her clear a few toys off the floor and a few things off her mind, and to read stories to her daughters when they got home from spending the afternoon with Grandma. It was a great day, and I was happy on the way home. Especially even happier when I heard from my friend Leah on the way and chatted quite a bit on the phone during the whole trip. When not chatting, I have been listening to Revisionist History and Beautiful/Anonymous podcasts - Paul informs me that I am missing a fabulous season of Reply All so I intend to pick that up on my way to Saskatoon for my friend’s wedding next week.


I cut down trees, I eat my lunch, I go to the lavatory

On Wednesdays I go shopping and have buttered scones for tea


Monday was unique in that Paul and I finally did something we’ve both been wanting to do for ages, except this was something Paul REALLY wanted to do: go axe throwing! We learned some basic technique and threw small axes about 15 feet towards a big wooden target attached to the wall. While it was definitely a bit more dangerous than one’s average Monday night, I found that I really took to it, and though I would often go long stretches without sticking an axe in the target, I did manage several bullseyes and two doubles - throwing two axes, one in each hand, at the two targets. You can’t throw an axe at a target that already has an embedded axe, that’s dangerous, so you have to sort of keep your wits about you the whole time, but all in all it was a simple and deceptively active thing to do. My shoulders are a bit sore tonight after adding swimming to that mess.


Because of the kind of session that I shot today, an online dating profile session, my entry into a nearby gym was purchased by client and the wristband lasted all day,  so despite how busy I am I decided that I had to take the opportunity to go swimming since I haven't had a chance to spend quality time in the pool for some time. End up dividing my time between stretching out some old moves in the Lane Swim area and evaluating how my swimming strokes work since my body is shaped so much differently than it was when I swam on a daily basis.


Unfortunately there were waterlogging complications for lane swim, since I have a hard time finding goggles that fit me and I prefer to swim with them. I have two fairly expensive pairs now, neither of which fit my face, so hopefully I can sell them both to get enough money to try and find a single mask that actually fits my face. It’s been an issue for several years now, since the one mask I had got too old and the plastic warped and cracked.

Underwater
Time is standing still
You're the treasure
Dive down deeper

Still, all I need is you

Some days I feel like hitting my 30s is a constant mess of things wearing out. This week it was exacerbated by the fact that my GPS won’t charge properly anymore even though it appears there’s nothing else wrong with it… Perhaps some phone store can fix it for me for less than the cost of a new one… The good ones are over $350 these days!

I like to think that we had it all

We drew a map to a better place

It was very nostalgic and thoughtful, which I remember being the case even when I was young oddly enough. It made it even more interesting that this civic centre is a rare library-rec centre combo, just like the ones I grew up with. The pool was great, and since it’s only 10 minutes from here and has a library attached and internal options for healthy food and fruit beverages, it may become a haunt for me to work on things outside of the house in winter and get a workout at the same time. Also, I could use that elusive sense of totally calm thinking I get when floating through the “lazy river” at the pool. I was actually thinking I might have to borrow a GoPro from a friend and shoot a YouTube video there about being in control as content for the Time Management site.


The wheels are turning in general after swimming. I remember wishing I could take up teaching swimming lessons again after seeing a man with his son training him to go underwater for the first time... But since it's sort of a job for 16-20 year olds it's probably not worth recerting my qualifications. Probably the most interesting part of the evening was that there were several women wearing burkinis, which I was happy about and then had to think about why... It started me thinking about all the racist garbage happening in France and the EU, and how I want to feel free to live my faith without abuse, and though our faiths are different, I think that supporting other people of faith in not being abused by thoughtless and ignorant people is important in a secular world.


But during National Brotherhood Week,

It's National Everyone-smile-at-one-another-hood Week,

Be nice to people who are inferior to you,

It's only for a week, so have no fear,

Be grateful that it doesn't last all year!


Tonight I had just enough time (50 minutes, pretty much on the nose) to introduce Paul to one of my favourite musical comedians, the dark and zippy pianoman and satirist, Tom Lehrer. So many horrible, horrible songs that you just can’t help but grin and then promptly grimace.


I’ve been doing a lot of coaching and teaching for CPC ever since I changed my mind about being part of the company, and I really feel like there’s some absolutely fabulous results for some of my clients. I live for the days when I get to coach and teach, and can’t wait to make more opportunities to do this in my life. I am currently writing a book and in the idea-gathering stage for the kind of podcast I want to start for time management. I have a lot of different ideas, just waiting for the right one to gel, the same way the idea for the book did last May after several abandoned attempts.


On top of all of this I have also been working on my Admire Studios revised catalog for 2016 - 2017. I think I'm actually finished at this point, you know, like uploaded to my website level of done, although I do tend to tinker.  I've also been working on my greeting emails that go along with galleries where the photos are finished,  a few tweaks to the Admire website and all manner of small details like that to get in shape for a big fall season.


So basically a lot of things have been happening. Which I feel like I say every time, but I suppose the News has it’s mores and memes and formats and so do I when I talk about my own news. I shouldn’t expect to be any different than anyone else in that more things will continue to happen, and I will hopefully keep blogging again now that I’ve built up some momentum.


We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
And time's forever frozen still