You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us
I have been enjoying a couple of new albums lately, as well as a number of audiobooks, as I did quite a bit of travelling recently. In the wake of the Alberta floods, it's difficult to imagine that I was just in Calgary and Edmonton. In fact, I left the area mere days before the floods hit downtown, washing out streets I drove down after shooting a wedding. It's a sobering thought. In any case, I shot several sessions and a wedding over the past while and as a consequence of a great deal of past sessions, I've been doing a lot of editing.
While in Alberta I visited my therapist, who reminded me that the fact that I always seem to be exhausted is likely due to two decades of pushing my body to its stress-limits and that I should expect to be seeing the effects of that for some time in the normal course of stress detoxifying. I suppose that all makes sense but I don't like it. I've been sleeping a lot for the last few weeks, and maybe it's for the best, because I'm finally starting to really see some productive time again.
I guess that's a bit unfair. Depending on how you define productive I've been doing quite a few things with my time.
I've read a few books. I'm finding myself getting a bit bored of stories and looking for other things to do. Science, or crafty ideas. I'm going to make an effort to start working on the crewel embroidery piece I liked so much again. I picked up a small, cheap tablet to use as combination e-reader, Angry Birds player, photo shower, and such so I could further separate my work and personal life. I've spent a lot of time lately doing social things, from parties with friends to phone calls and connecting. So overall I would appear to be doing well.
My friend Michael, whose wedding I shot not long ago in Toronto, called me today to talk, which made me a very happy person. Even happier when he said they'd be visiting Saskatoon and they may avail themselves of our futon and stay with us.
I may not always love you
But so long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it
I have now been married over three years, and in a few weeks it will be the mark of four years together. Time passes, life changes, new things dawn. The day passed rather quietly - I wasn't in a great party mood so we just relaxed and saw a couple of movies in theatre instead of going out for the picnic Paul had planned. Hopefully we'll find a good picnic time soon!
The fact that I seem to be destined for a rather slow summer compared to what I was expecting has properly dawned on me and I am considering all my plans as a result. After hemming and hawing for some time, Paul and I decided we were going to head out to Drumheller in mid-July for the Passion Play and the Dinosaur museum, among other fun things. We'll be staying at a bed and breakfast on a working farm where the reviews say we'll be treated like gold. It's going to be a good experience. I have booked our tickets and accommodations and await a fine vacation time. I am getting a room ready for a boudoir studio in the house here, which also means that I need to make the place a bit more guest-worthy - and I need to buy some boudoir furniture. Despite the fact that I have a budget for it I keep trying to spend as little as possible... I need to snap out of it and just outfit the room already. It would certainly be easier if I had a truck.
Having a staff person has definitely decreased my workload. I'm not noticing it hugely yet, but as I said it's been a slower spring than I expected. I'm not really used to it yet, and I have more work to give her, but for now I've got equilibrium and I am building towards using my personal time constructively.
The garden grows, showing the passage of time better than I can illustrate it. I have attacked some of the garden weeds using a cool tool Paul discovered in his line of work that makes weeding a little easier. I am looking forward to fresh foods. Tomatoes and peas and such. The fare of gardeners.
So I am trying to be good to friends, constructive in my own time, and housewifely. I am attempting to get my work done loads before the final deadlines and doing a reasonably good job of it, too. I am, maybe for the first time, doing better than survival, and I'm a bit out of my element. I have even done some photography for myself - including taking a photo of the giant full moon while the moon was very close to the Earth the other day.
I'm just trying to be a better version of me for you