hobbes in the rain

Will Garden for Food

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of the dust

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of us

I have been enjoying a couple of new albums lately, as well as a number of audiobooks, as I did quite a bit of travelling recently. In the wake of the Alberta floods, it's difficult to imagine that I was just in Calgary and Edmonton. In fact, I left the area mere days before the floods hit downtown, washing out streets I drove down after shooting a wedding. It's a sobering thought. In any case, I shot several sessions and a wedding over the past while and as a consequence of a great deal of past sessions, I've been doing a lot of editing.

While in Alberta I visited my therapist, who reminded me that the fact that I always seem to be exhausted is likely due to two decades of pushing my body to its stress-limits and that I should expect to be seeing the effects of that for some time in the normal course of stress detoxifying. I suppose that all makes sense but I don't like it. I've been sleeping a lot for the last few weeks, and maybe it's for the best, because I'm finally starting to really see some productive time again.

I guess that's a bit unfair. Depending on how you define productive I've been doing quite a few things with my time.

I've read a few books. I'm finding myself getting a bit bored of stories and looking for other things to do. Science, or crafty ideas. I'm going to make an effort to start working on the crewel embroidery piece I liked so much again. I picked up a small, cheap tablet to use as combination e-reader, Angry Birds player, photo shower, and such so I could further separate my work and personal life. I've spent a lot of time lately doing social things, from parties with friends to phone calls and connecting. So overall I would appear to be doing well.

My friend Michael, whose wedding I shot not long ago in Toronto, called me today to talk, which made me a very happy person. Even happier when he said they'd be visiting Saskatoon and they may avail themselves of our futon and stay with us.

I may not always love you

But so long as there are stars above you

You never need to doubt it

I'll make you so sure about it

I have now been married over three years, and in a few weeks it will be the mark of four years together. Time passes, life changes, new things dawn. The day passed rather quietly - I wasn't in a great party mood so we just relaxed and saw a couple of movies in theatre instead of going out for the picnic Paul had planned. Hopefully we'll find a good picnic time soon!

The fact that I seem to be destined for a rather slow summer compared to what I was expecting has properly dawned on me and I am considering all my plans as a result. After hemming and hawing for some time, Paul and I decided we were going to head out to Drumheller in mid-July for the Passion Play and the Dinosaur museum, among other fun things. We'll be staying at a bed and breakfast on a working farm where the reviews say we'll be treated like gold. It's going to be a good experience. I have booked our tickets and accommodations and await a fine vacation time. I am getting a room ready for a boudoir studio in the house here, which also means that I need to make the place a bit more guest-worthy - and I need to buy some boudoir furniture. Despite the fact that I have a budget for it I keep trying to spend as little as possible... I need to snap out of it and just outfit the room already. It would certainly be easier if I had a truck.

Having a staff person has definitely decreased my workload. I'm not noticing it hugely yet, but as I said it's been a slower spring than I expected. I'm not really used to it yet, and I have more work to give her, but for now I've got equilibrium and I am building towards using my personal time constructively.

The garden grows, showing the passage of time better than I can illustrate it. I have attacked some of the garden weeds using a cool tool Paul discovered in his line of work that makes weeding a little easier. I am looking forward to fresh foods. Tomatoes and peas and such. The fare of gardeners.

So I am trying to be good to friends, constructive in my own time, and housewifely. I am attempting to get my work done loads before the final deadlines and doing a reasonably good job of it, too. I am, maybe for the first time, doing better than survival, and I'm a bit out of my element. I have even done some photography for myself - including taking a photo of the giant full moon while the moon was very close to the Earth the other day.

I'm just trying to be a better version of me for you