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Memento Mori

Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you

Our wedding tradeshow seemed to go extremely well on Sunday, which was very gratifying after having put so much work into it. Having one person ask about the display backdrop and another ask, "Who does your marketing?" meant a lot to me. I saw a couple from ballroom dancing who I really enjoyed talking to back in the day and they invited us over for supper when we move back, I met a photographer couple whose personality and work I really love, and I was happy to see Brian and Chelsea again (photographers from Saskatoon whose company we really enjoy!) All in all it looks like we had about a hundred leads, and many of them really good, from the show.

I found out the other day that I had two important weddings on the same day... and subsequently found out that I can go to every part of both of them because they intersect perfectly. It's going to be a long day, but we will miss nothing. Which is totally unexpected. I was pretty disappointed when I heard that one of the weddings had moved, but now I know it will be fine! And I was thinking on the fact that I would rather be a part of this wedding as a guest than a photographer, and how that's unusual for me. Another of my close friends got engaged recently, and there's a pretty funny story about that involving a stretch of beach… I am so happy for them.

I've been seeing lots of people this week. My parents, friends, family. It's been a good stretch, and a good reminder of just how many people in Saskatoon care for me.

I spent almost all of today hanging out with people, from this morning having Starbucks with my brother-in-law and his baby girl, lunch with my friend Drew, afternoon ice cream with my friend Corrina, and supper with family who are also wedding clients, then I visited with a friend online while I was working on some editing. 

While at lunch on campus it was very strange to explore the new Place Riel and spaces which I spent a great deal of time on while I was in University while they were teeming with students. I find that world hard to understand, having been out of it for three years now - even after Paul was in it. The fast paced crowds are so unfamiliar now. It reminded me of my first few days of high school after having been homeschooled for most of my life. Everything was just so LOUD. I spent my lunch hours sitting outside the school just staring into space because it was all so overwhelming. 

I have narrowed my focus this week to doing nothing but editing and visiting, which is actually going quite well for me. Next week will be a flurry of contacting brides from both bridal shows, so it's good that I'm spending the time here. On Friday it will be driving all day, as I am going to ride along with Paul to a small town for one of his work assessments (bringing my therapy journal to look back upon and consider), and then drive to Edmonton once we get back. Tons of driving. Nice because it's my favourite season. Not great because a whole day of driving isn't fun.

Thanks to Drew's new Memento Mori watch, the face of which reads, "Remember, you will die" and the random Relient K song I heard on the way home tonight called Deathbed, I've been thinking about life in the light of the end of the tunnel. I think I am in a good place to start working a little harder on ensuring that I am where I want to be in my life.

Oh Deathbed. That is a good song. I haven't heard it in ages. I couldn't decide if I loved or hated it and I think I will err on the side of loved.