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Stick Shift, Sunshine, Soothing

You know the one thing you're fighting to hold
Will be the one thing you've got to let go
Gonna stay stay out but you don't care
Now is there nothing like the inside of you anywhere


The last few days have been generally eventful and have straddled the line between relaxing and stressful. I'm starting to get back in the habit of things now. I graduated, I erranded, I had a massage. I had a lovely and long conversation with Ken, Helen, and Paul about the Biblical model for family, which was touched on in a series we're watching that has been expanding my horizions. I feel as though my spiritual life has been quite excellent lately and I am very happy to be able to share it with people.

Last night I had the great privilege of going to a spa party hosted by my best friend Leah. I was on time while the others were late, so Leah and I enjoyed some fruit butchering together. We made special pizzas and enjoyed Kate and Leopold with a foot spa and then I ended up staying and doing the sleepover hangout thing with Leah, which was wonderful. I truly enjoy her and her space. I ended up grabbing a spot on the hide-a-bed at 3am and having a long nap for the night, then getting up and eating some watermelon while she prepped for teaching her morning piano teaching. Then I left for the city. Throughout the day yesterday I played both my favourite albums in their entirety and some songs more than once. I'm curious for what's next - I know MuteMath and Switchfoot are both putting out new albums in August and September respectively, so I'm looking forward to that.

Today I had worship practice, for which I got to sing harmony to some of my favourite songs with some of my favourite people. It was glorious. I really, really love singing tight harmonies. I'm made for it. After practice it was an intensely lovely day - nearly 30°C (86°F) and so I picked up takeout from Taco Time for a picnic on my friend's lawn. It was a joy to eat with them and to watch them playing with their two-year-old on the swingset. A wonderful way to spend a summer lunchtime. I came home and spent several intermittent hours on the computer working, then Drew took me out onto the grid roads off Hwy. 16 to re-learn stick shifting. Things went really well for the most part, I find stick shifting quite natural in his car. The sunset was just spectacular, pink and framed by several different layers of cloud systems, some dark, some light. It was quite lovely. I stalled three times in an intersection full of impatient people, which was annoying. I was barely even in the way since I got myself into the very center... Anyway. It's annoying that drivers have so little grace for other drivers. Actually it kind of makes me sad. Just the general state of things is graceless pretty much all around.

Now I am sitting with my triple set of asymetric candleholders lit and lovely, about to watch Return to Me, a movie that's been on my to-see list for ages. And I think in the morning I may have a bubble bath. Yes, that sounds excellent. I have two other movies on my to watch soon list that I have seen before but really liked - Shakespeare in Love and The Lake House - it would be my third time for both. And eventually I plan to watch a TV series or two as well.

It's a good way to begin a week. Tomorrow is Sunday. A week begins. A new week in which I hope to re-align myself into the path that I want to choose for this summer and for the rest of life. Life stretches out before me. I see some twists and turns that I am not altogether pleased about. Decisions I have to make, some of them over and over again. Some decisions I just need to keep backing up and choosing again and again, practicing the gear change until it becomes fluid and effortless.

Thing #345 that I love about housesitting here? Automatic icemaker in the fridge. I've been having icewater for two weeks and I'm drinking more water than ever, and at perfect temperatures. At least I'm doing something for my health. (Says the person who is currently delighted to be snacking on a fresh pear and has barely eaten any junk food in weeks. My own worst critic, I tell you.)

The tension is here, the tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
I dare you to move
 
  • Current Music: Anberlin Never Take Friendship Personal and MuteMath Self-Titled Albums